A Conversation With Concisousness

One day, consciousness said to me–

We are all consciousness. And see,

The job of consciousness, what consciousness is always doing, 

Is leaving itself so it can see itself–that’s all, and it's

All that is ever happening.

Why do bad things happen to good people?

Why do even revered religious figures do strangeness with children?

Why does the world suck, and why is life hard,

Why do we lie, and lie and lie to ourselves and others?

And why did she/he/he/she/they leave when I know they love me?

Consciousness is constantly leaving itself to see itself, to find itself, to be itself

Why are people constantly buying excess and striving for what they don’t need?

Taking exotic vacations amongst starving populations? 

Striving for ever more wealth and power and stuffity stuff? and why

Don’t we ever feel like enough?

Consciousness is constantly leaving itself to see itself to find itself to be itself.

And since this is all that is ever happening, consciousness will never give up this quest,

And since we are all the same thing, we will give it all for

This process.  ALL.

Even when the worst happens, and innocents perish…

Cruelty, and the perverse drive to insult humanity, 

This terrible game, 

And people put rules on God, and punish those who don’t comply

And shame wreaks its havoc, and we try to bend ourselves into 

Rules and rigor imposed by moody patriarchs from past and twisted times.

And we are never quite comfortable, and dread, and tension of being weigh…us…down.

Consciousness CONSTANTLY leaving itself to see itself to find itself to be itself….

Why men and women and EVERY other gender experience?  These are helpful distortions of conscious being, consciousness ripping itself in two and every which way so it can see itself from over there. 

OH HI! Let’s be friends or fenemies…..or become the beast with two backs, or attack or help or love or hate, or make love or make babies or be together forever and I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU  AGAIN!     ooooorrr…how about one general side dominates the other for centuries until it becomes apparent how stupid that is but WE ARE STILL FUCKING DOING THAT!! But don’t worry there are ways to make them miserable except those make a self miserable.  SHIT.

And some are codependent, and some can never find “love” 

and why is the porn industry so Wonderfully successful in UTAH? No hate. 

Consciousness is constantly leaving ITSELF to see ITSELF to find ITSELF to be ITSELF.

And we create works and art and creations of such beauty that we get caught up,

Swept away, taken, awakened, moved and grooved,

And also so interesting and odd, and diverse, what a work is man and what works we do!!

Genius, grand and poignant, precision, depth, and ineffable beauty.

A dance of life in light and truth is beauty and beauty truth, 

Seeing and teaching and OOOOOOMMMMMM, and when she touched me

I swear I left this body-electric and ECSTATIC

Consciousness IS constantly leaving itself to see itself to find itself to be itself. 

Ecstatic literally means to be outside ourselves…Why would be want to do that??

……Yeah, that’s why.

And why this broken brain, dopamine starved chasing itself in circles and never finding direction. Am I a man? And why do they hate me? Why did they betray me, and say what wasn’t true, or what they didn’t know,  and why was it the way it was, and why did history bleed itself into me? And why am I this smart and dumb and awkward and lovely, broken and whole? Why couldn’t I die? Gods, I love this life!!! Rich and poor, and power and weakness. Trembling, and I feel the dark. Dancing with divinity…  THANK YOU!

And why, oh Earth, are you setting this stage, ravishing us with the curved creation, revelation, wonder and beauty in truth, green and brown and the stunning colors of wonder and life?

AND trying to kill us and eat us and starve us and crush us and freeze us?

Earth, a teaching in consciousness, to leave itself to see itself to feel itself to know itself. 

Consciousness, working itself in matter, inhabiting density, and walking around, dying. 

We have one choice. We can be with consciousness or we can get played by it. 

AND we are all doing this together. The earth will give us what we need, we will all give ourselves, as all, what we need until…

We have left ourselves, and seen ourselves, and found OURSELVES, and we become our conscious being. 

Every experience, moment, is equal, none better or worse, all asking you that one question, 

… consciousness said to me…